My Baby's Birthday

Today is my Isaac's Birthday. I can't believe it has already been two years. I spent the day reliving his birthing experience. It's funny as a mom I've also done that on each one of Letty's birthdays. Does everyone do that? It seems natural since you are celebrating their life to reflect on their birth, at least to me. I have just a few precious memories of Isaac in this life so I like to revisit all of them, even though it's painful. I'm not sure exactly what I want to say except that we love and miss him. We decided last year that we would always celebrate his birthday in some way. Letty thought we should wear party hats, I thought that was a bit much so we made cookies instead. I love my sweet Letty who is so tender hearted. While baking she talked about Isaac. It went something like this.

L-I'm thinking about Isaac and that he can hear us right now.
S- I think he can hear us and know that we are celebrating him.
L-I'm wondering what he will look like when he is big like you and daddy.
S- Do you think he looks more like mommy or daddy?
L-I think he looks like daddy.
S- Me too.
L-We should send these cookies up to him.
S-That's a nice idea but I think he'll just have to know we are thinking of him.
L-Okay

She has such a sure and clear perspective. Children are amazing!

Today I wore the necklace I share with him, to have him close to my heart. Bare with me while I share some of my testimony. I feel very strongly that I need to share my feelings about this experience with others or I would be offending my Father in Heaven. I often hear this statement in regards to loosing a child "I don't know how you can do that, I couldn't." I respond with this: "you would be amazed at what you can do that you didn't think you could." I didn't/don't do it alone. I was blessed with strength beyond my own. I love the plan of salvation and happiness. I know my Heavenly Father loves me and that families can be bonded together forever. I know we are sent angles to comfort and lift us. So today and everyday but especially today my thoughts are with my sweet angel baby who awaits us in Heaven. We love you!